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Something about the rain… 🌧️ Allowing the rain to wash over me is so healing in many ways… pretty sure my neighbor’s thought I was crazy. But someway somehow it connected me to you in some strange way. I am homesick for a home I will never be able to return. YOU were my home. If I could change it I would in a blink of an eye have you back and life back to the “normal” we had. Until we meet again 💔❤️‍🩹 I will miss you the rest of my days #youngwidow #widowmomlife #widow #RememberingQ #griefofmyhusband #griefandloss #griefjourney #widowsoftiktok #crazybusymama #crazybusygriefmama

Oh the way you looked at me 💔❤️‍🩹🥹 that’s one of the things I miss so much. 😢It’s been a little over a year… and it still feels like yesterday in so many ways. 💔 Q you were one of the good ones!! Miss you like crazy! Can’t wait for the day we are reunited! So thankful for the cross ✝️

26 years ago today I was filled with such joy and excitement of the unknown… today I stand on the face of the future filled with gratitude yet so unsure of what my future holds without you. 💔❤️‍🩹 Building a life with you was a dream fulfilled and feel so honored to have been your wife Everyday I grow further and closer to you all at once. Happy 26th Anniversary babe… I got the gift of spending almost 25 years with you and that is a treasure I will hold dear for the rest of my days. #CrazyBusyMama #widowmomlife #widowsoftiktok #soloparenting #youngwidow #widowsinglemom #griefjourney #widow #rememberingQ

A Father’s Day Trubute ❤️‍🩹 to Q “It Is Well with my Soul” To read stories comment “Q” and I will would love to share a design from my children’s hearts. #CrazyBusyMama #widow #griefjourney #widowmomlife #youngwidows #rememberingQ #widowsoftiktok

In honor of National Widow’s Day… may we honor widows and look for opportunities to support this community. For more resources please comment “WIDOW” I am going into my second year of widowhood and gathering resources to share along the way to be able to guide and help. #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowmom #widowsday #widowlife #widow #widowsoftiktok

Seize the moment.. the opportunity! Live a life full of adventure enjoy the ups and learn to lean on Him through the valleys Say yes and figure it out as you go! #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #griefandloss #widowsoftiktok

Grief doesn’t come with a handbook. Some days I’m in my sweats crying on the kitchen floor. Other days, I’m putting on mascara and choosing to show up anyway. Both are holy. Both are healing. This one’s for all the mamas carrying both heartbreak and hope. 💔✨ Widow and Looking for resources comment “WIDOW” be happy to share what is helping me to find community. #crazybusymama #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #widowmom #widow

No one talks about the secondary losses of losing a partner… After the funeral people go home and go on with their life. I have grieved you every moment of every day. Through my kids eyes, through everyday battles of struggles, loss of the foundation we built and dreams we had. Everything changed when I lost you! #CrazyBusyMama #widowmomlife #widowsoftiktok #soloparenting #youngwidow

I thought losing you was the worst thing, but it's learning to live without you The shock is starting to wear off and I am left with the reality of my life. Ours Hopes and Dreams gone in an instant. The struggles of dealing with memories being made and milestones of our kids lives and you not physically being here. Waking and going to bed alone, adjusting to new routines as an only parent without you, not wanting to do this alone but having no choice but to. Waking up and finding ways to move forward each day without you by my side. This is just a bit of what life is like learning to live without you here by my side. What keeps me going is that one day in the sweet by and by I will see you again. Until we meet again my love ❤️‍🩹 

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When my husband passed await unexpectedly, I remember my body and mind just went numb an absolute out of body experience of not knowing which direction was up. 💔❤️‍🩹 The first thing I did was lay over his cold lifeless body and prayed out loud giving God thanks for gifting me with my best friend, partner, lover and father of my children and for the cross!! 3 of my kids were standing behind me and one was driving back in the wee hours of the night from college. The room was thick with silence as I could even hear the sheriff who came to the scene sobbing in the background. If am being honest, I don’t know how I had the strength to that. I felt like screaming weeping and desired to lie next to him and die myself. Praising God and thanking Him for Q was the last thing I wanted to do, not because he wasn’t worthy of praise and Q worthy of the gratitude it was simply because I knew my life the one I had always known was dead too. This has been the absolute hardest year of my life … and I look back on that moment of trying to resuscitate Q, his death and this past year God has been with me very step of the way. This song resonates with me so much … BUT GOD!! He is making a WAY! I may have died that day… but I am a woman who still believes. Believes He has a plan to prosper me. Believes He is making a way equipping me with exactly what I need to raise my children alone. Believes He is giving me and my kids purpose through our pain. That night in our bedroom floor Q lay lifeless in his physical but I believe our worst day was Qs best day and he is now fishing 🎣 along with Peter and walking along si th Jesus. God is faithful He will see us through… I may never know why God needed Q more than me, but I trust that He has us and He will and always remain faithful. No matter what your circumstances may be… GOD is still Good and He is Working all things out for Good! He went to the cross for not just Q or me, but you too friend. I pray in sharing my grief publicly … I make a kingdom impact! It is my goal to make heaven crowded. ✝️💗 Until we meet again one day Q … will forever miss you 💔❤️‍🩹✝️ #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #widowmom #widowsoftiktok

✈️ and we are off… 🌴🥥🍹 #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowlife #widowsoftiktok

Graduation 👩🏻‍🎓 day for my sweet Ella!! Ready or not… feeling all the feels ❤️‍🩹 #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowmom #seniormoms #senioryear #widowsoftiktok

May sound silly but it brought a smile to my face. I had been nursing the same broken Airfryer since Qs passing so I decided to replace it with a beautiful one ❤️‍🩹 I am going to consider it a gift from him this anniversary. Pretty certain the 26th anniversary is not an Airfryer 😂 but hey it is for me *just edited… after all the questions in my inbox, I put the link up on my stories #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #reclaimthetable #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #widow

All about perspective friends… what a blessing my daughter was in that moment. #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #soloparenting #widowsoftiktok